For the first time in a long time…I thought about ending me.

Poison The Well - Pamplemousse (by MediocreMemory

northerngrizzlywarrior:

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smartcoat:

The Nerve Of Some People!

junkflair:

Break Ups

“My Side of Her Nightmare”

Lullabies and atrocities,

I still can recall

All of my pains, all of my blood

Incarcerated in the life

I chose, a devil amongst gods

I know my kingdom crumbles

With every last breath I take

My sweet, my only, my one

But your accusations

All the things that only they have done

No one will ever know

Because only my lies you’ve exposed

My mistress, my lover

I am soon to discover

The lies you feed your disciples

Will soon come back to poison what’s left of my heart

In the end, no more clouds, no more sun

A barren empty waste of lifelessness

Deemed to be forgotten in lies and tales

No more righteousness, overcome, and overturn

My kingdom falls,

The king will crumble

All the pillars you have created

They grow weary and weak

With the acts of the selfish

Overcome, I’ve been to hell and back

Overturn, You found a way to send me back

Impossible lies

I’ve had to fabricate and recreate

Out of madness and sadness I found one reason to lie

When your flesh becomes another’s

I am left with no choice

Always, always, remember I am sworn to you

I swore my blood to you, I gave you my life

(Chorus)

(Spoken)

I swore to you, never to leave

Yet you push the limits, begging me to walk away

When the sun and the moon collide

I will be there…

I surrender to the stories of ghosts

To lies that you blame on me

Keep punishing me, keep torturing me

When my blood runs empty there will be no place to hide

Your lies die with me!

Are you listening?!

Do you hear me?!

Your lies end with me!

I won’t haunt you

But you will finally achieve peace

Will you be there,

When they bury me!?

Do you hear me?!

All your lies, the side of your story

Your fairy tales end with me…

Your dark knight is falling,

Your king is dying

Your lies…

They end…

With me…

     1.      She is the most beautiful girl in the planet

2.       She is awesome

3.       She is a gamer

4.       She is tattooed up

5.       She is a metalhead

6.       She listens to darker metal than I will ever do

7.       She accepts me because of me

8.       She puts up with me

9.       She likes me

10.   She likes me despite me being all fucked in the head

11.   She is a milf

12.   She has a beautiful, badass little spawn

13.   I love said little spawn

14.   She’s kinda  like a clean slate in the valentine’s department which means I will have fun with that

15.   She is too cute at everything

16.   I love her scent

17.   I love her physically

18.   I love her mentally

19.   She challenges my mind

20.   Her nerdyness in biology gives me a mental boner

21.   She makes me smile

22.   I miss her every damn day

23.   Said little spawn from earlier makes me feel important again

24.   Said little spawn is going to be my little soccer star lol

25.   I never thought I’d be happy

26.   She has been with me even though I was married

27.   She picked up the pieces

28.   She motivates me to be better

29.   She motivates me to succeed

30.   She challenges me to succeed in life

31.   I get lost in her eyes

32.   I get lost in her smile

33.   I get lost just thinking about her

34.   Stars are jealous of her shine

35.   She is an atheist

36.   She shares some of my philosophical views

37.   She loves Digimon

38.   She loves Pokemon

39.   She is my little weirdo

40.   I love seeing her wake up

41.   The little things about her make me fall in love all over again

42.   She talks about the zombipacolypse

43.   She is a hunter

44.   She gets manicures before hunting

45.   She wants what is best for me

46.   She is expensive to maintain

47.   I love the way she laughs

48.   She is my little nephilim

49.   She is my best friend

50.   She is my future

“The Black Lotus”

I picked the most beautiful, black lotus the other day

It had thorns all over its body

The thorns shredded and dug into my skin

And in an instant, it didn’t matter

Because the lotus had infected me with its life

I became infatuated with the lotus

I fell in love with my flower

And in turn, the blood covered lotus fell in love with me

Days passed and I would tend to my flower

For I, a torn, broken, pathetic man, had promised myself

Never to fall in love, never again

I took care of my flower

I could not believe my obsession with the flower

I grew fonder as time progressed

I could feel the love she gave to me

She gave me new hope, a new way to see life

She took my darkest obsessions, and buried them underground

I searched for redemption, and she absolved me of all my sins

I found a new reason to live

The weeks passed by and I swore my life to the lotus

But the lies of the jealous, and the rumors of the damned

Kept whispering in her petals

They smashed the shrine I had built to protect my beautiful flower

Something I thought would not be possible

Months flew off the calendar

My flower could no longer trust me to take care of her,

No matter how much I begged, no matter how torn my knees were from begging

That I would give my life for her, that I would destroy planets for her

I’d dry my veins to keep her alive

That she is my one and only, my life, my dead, my breath and my soul

She resists, looks at me, whispers to be patient…

But I am too stubborn, and too tired from all the wars I ever did fight

I cry every night as I shout to the heavens

I will wait until the end of times

That I will be there to take her home

Yet the flower’s love for me is fading,

Or maybe I am delusional, imagining things.

That old feeling of death whispers in my ear,

It whispers that she doesn’t love me, that I should leave this planet

I am afraid, I am too tired

But I protect my flower everyday

I’ll be there to take the pain, the punishment, the hate…

And I will wait forever to be one with her

Even when the sun dies, and this time expires

I will be there, one with the flower

As the years expire…

Did you think you’d find whats left of me in another life. You’ve had your chance but you’re going to hell.

Did you ever listen to the lies that you told me.

It was meant for you not me.

All this time you’ve stolen from me, now your blood will be washed away.

Now your end is my escape. My life was yours to take.

I can’t feel anything but hate, wish you could be erased.

You’re all that’s fake.

I can’t feel anything but hate, I wish you could just be erased.

You’re all that’s fake.

There won’t be peace (there won’t be peace) for those who betray,

forever, eternal… You will all pay.

There won’t be peace (there won’t be peace) for those who betray,

I am the reaper and today is my day.

You’ve ruined my life.

You’ve ruined my mind.

Close your mouth, your sins are spilling out.

Close your… Your sins are spilling out.

Wipe off your grin, you make me fucking sick.

Wipe off your grin, you make me fucking sick.

There won’t be peace (there won’t be peace) for those who betray,

forever, eternal… You will all pay.

There won’t be peace (there won’t be peace) for those who betray,

I am the reaper and today is my day.

There won’t be peace (there won’t be peace) for those who betray,

forever, eternal… You will all pay.

There won’t be peace (there won’t be peace) for those who betray,

I am the reaper and today is my…

You’re going to hell.

Did you ever listen to the lies that you told me.

It was meant for you not me

(via girlhit-deactivated20120221)

My body is a cage…

Love this song